AM I BACK OR IS THIS ANOTHER LIE

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So, hello there, if your new here, my name is Eric Gichuru and quarantine had this passion i picked up during quarantine because i love writing. I don't do the writing that makes most New York best-selling books but I love writing about things that I feel connected with. I picked up writing because if I'm being 100% honest, I could not handle being perceived visually and i love communication, so writing was my outlet. as I write this today, it's literally been over 2 years since my last post and I personally think it's even crazy 2 YEARSSS omg omg omgggg. anyway, so I stumbled upon this blogpost, and I decide to bring life back into an old passion I loved. so, where do I begin. of course you'd ask, why 2 years that's crazy for something you loved and if I am being honest, I don't have a good enough excuse. I am literally no longer in my teens writing this yet the last time I wrote this I was still 18 omggg crazy. so much has changed in my life.

first and foremost, I have to say that my fear of being perceived visually has definitely decreased by a huuuge percentage however I don't do any communicative content, i just serve looks and aesthetics that i love and connect with and dip 😅😙but at least I am trying to be more out there. I have also started my small business venture (cire_wear) which I'm so proud of myself for doing. it basically for now is sunglasses brand because I love glasses so much. I will give a history of that some other time. I also really became me in many other aspects, physically, mentally, emotionally. I no longer hide as I used to, I was so comfortable in being in shadows, now the spotlight is all I yearn for that's really impressive for me. this feels like I'm talking to 18yr old me because he is the last person you interacted with on this page. I can also say that most of my early traumas are healed or at least I finally feel like I have a grip of my life which is a feeling I haven't had in so long and now we are here, happy, healthy and trying to be wealthy. 

life is such a simulation cause today you're 10 tomorrow you're 30, but you still feel 10 however your body and other factors are the only evidence that you are 30 and that's what everything feels like. ok damn, I'm now rumbling and saying nonsense but I'm writing this at literally 12;52pm so you can tell I'm yawning after every 3 words and I need to sleep, however I'm glad I have written this down and I actually want to pick this back as my hobby cause I really enjoyed it and this doesn't feel like TikTok idk if you get what I'm saying. anyway, goodbye for now and I hope you have a good and successful life and good energy shall always surround itself with you and me. bye 

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